Were we meant to be or did god not want us to meet?

okay so when i was young i met this guy that i liked and he liked me back he soon started loving me and i didn't no and then in second grade i moved to a different school and forgot about it because he was just a crush so u no what ever..but he still loved me and we grew apart until 6th grade when i met my cousin she came up to me and said hey - do u remember a guy named - and i said no what are u talking about and she said that there is this guy that goes to her school and that me and him went to school together like kindergarten to second grade and i said wow that's long ago and she said that he found out we were cousin and he started asking her all these questions about me like where i live and things and she was like whoa and she told me and i couldn't remember because it had been like 5 years so then me and her would meet like a few times a week and she would bring me information about him like we would talk about him and so i could remember and i started to remember but i didn't no how he looked and he happened to be in seventh grade because i started second all over since i changed schools..any ways he still remember how i looked he said he wanted to marry me even though we were young and he couldn't live if i was with another guy and things and then i started loving him even though we hadn't met in years..well then i would always try to look for him every where i would go because my little sister happened to no how he looked because she had met him at a party once..well yeah and so the problem is that we never meet no matter how close we get like i went shopping my sister, grandma, younger cousin. aunt my mom and i we went sopping and my mom dropped us of and said she was going to work and i wanted to go because i met my cousin there (the one who told me about the guy) and she goes there with her and my mom to work and clean so i thought i should go so i could get info about him rather then shopping and so i left when i came back to get my family members my sister ran up to me and said sis sis sis he was here and he happened to be there when i left and i got there but he had left all ready and we went to a party he was there but behind tables and doors because he was to shy so i didn't meet him there and i went to a wedding and he was there i didn't see him though because he was there when i went to go eat and when i came back inside he went to go eat and after that he left we were a few minutes away from meeting each other..i went to another party he came five minutes right after i left..his dad had a stroke so he didn't go many places and a couple months ago like last years like 5 months after i found out about him i found out that he had brain cancer with a year to live..and a couple days ago he passed away..and i really started to love him and i wanted to spend my whole life with him ..now i wonder if we weren't meant to be or something god didn't let us meet and he died..so we will never meet ever again now all i can hope for is a picture..